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| The evangelistic newspaper of the modern Jesus Army | 2000 |
EELCO'S SUICIDE PRAYER
"If I don't have any friends tomorrow, I'll kill myself"
In desperation and confusion, Eelco cried out to a God he didn't know!
In desperation, Eelco called out to God, "If I don't have any friends tomorrow I'll kill myself."
The friend he made the very next day was Luke, a young Christian, who helped Eelco find real faith in Jesus and a secure place among Christian friends.
In his own words, Eelco, from Holland, was "desperate to find a life worth living" and was caught up in a scene of music, festivals and drugs, where he had seen many friends already become junkies. The sense of all this was a despairing yet defiant "God is dead so why bother!" A sense of evil and blackness went everywhere with Eelco.
But Eelco had many thoughts about God which refused to go away and though he wasn't ready to just give in, he longed to know the truth. Luke gave Eelco lots of booklets about Jesus and then introduced him to his church, until Eelco reached a point of having to prove God for himself.
One day he prayed aloud, sensing the conflict of good and evil around him: "If you're evil, go away. If you're good, if you're Jesus, then come in."
Eelco recalls how it felt: "Instead of just speaking with my mouth, it was like I really meant it in my heart. It felt like a door swung open inside and Jesus stepped in! I have found God for real!"
This article has been extracted from Streetpaper, published by Jesus Fellowship
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